And the swirl began. You know that swirl, don’t you? That swirl that starts in your throat, goes straight to your gut and then to your heart, spiraling slowly through your body, reaching every corner, taking any loose nerves it can find and sparking them alive but only before promptly killing them. The warm rush, the cold chills, the 10,000 questions, the blockage from hearing any answers because there is no way an answer will make anything better. [...]